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Today is NOT my day. ARGHHHHHHHHHH.
Today is not my day. SO NOT.
Started the day forgetting to bring tie coz i was so tired yesterday after the late meeting and din have enough time to recharge. Nothing happened dere, but still the guilt of not bringing is bad enuf la. Than went arnd school looking for Andrew who promised to find Jia Yee for me. Well. He did la. But it was the finding him, finding her part that wuz hard. But I noe Jia Ýee's good. And she is SO NICE. haha.... only i haven ever seen her. Yet. I asked Yi yang and Si Xiong and Andrew and Hui Min and Zhang Han to point her out to me when they see her. hah. Next, i got reminded that i cant go for CCC 欢送会 which my closest fwen in sch, Hui Min is organising. Sigh. Jodi and Hui Min were all "Why cannot go??? Huh... come la..." which made me feel even sadder. sigh. But Hui Min promised to let me write something to the seniors. I still miss them alot. Saw this 2003 LEP outing photo in Geraldine's mailbox today, with all the yr 2 LEP seniors, almost all, maybe except Jia Yee...hah. Since Geraldine left TJ, the photo has been lying there, unclaimed, so sad rite...? Later had Big-5 de-brief which was like hey, quite cute. I found out i am not an extrovert as i always tot i was. I am super balanced... 50/50. haha... and I realised i am indeed the boring, 守旧, "乖" person i already knew i wuz. hahah.... that's my highest personality trait actually... ADAPTABILITY My reaction to stuff, esp stress is also super high. And i am supposedly someone who helps others until i forget about myself, which i must start to do, as the report says. "Pay attention to your own needs too, don't only consider other's welfare, you are someone important too!" Ya. sure. Suprisingly enough, my Procrastination index and so called "flexible" index is not as high as the others around me. HUH? Aren't i the biggest slacker around??? How can i be more organised or hardworking than anyone else??? Impossible. Impossible. (Hahaha.... but expected: Kee Liang's Concientious trait is 比高还高... almost impossibly organised, focused and a BORN LEADER, i tell you. That guy is like the best 人选 for president. No one can beat him...) The LEO B.O.D divided into pairs and went to survey the HDB estates to prepare for Old Newspaper Collection. Me and Ga Yeong were a pair, till we both got lost, Ga yeong's phone no batt.... ARGH. It was the kinda pretty traumatising scenario and until now i still in the "unsteady" state of mind. Searched and searched for Ga Yeong until i got lost myself. Din noe where i was and started to feel super unwell maybe coz a bit over-worked and over-stressed. Haha... Andrew is SO RIGHT, i AM a gigantic 路痴 and i cant go anywhere without another person being with me and leading.OK. So u pple now, next time i wan to go anywhere alone, please go with me. Thankew. haha... if not i'll call u all and ask for directions when i get lost. 《云南缘》编委。Was so happy coz i tot 副主编 was gonna be Hui Min. Well, it turned out Hui Min as busy as me and thus we both not doing... guess who's doing. Sigh. i almost collapsed when after one whole tiring, traumatising, horrible day, i receive the sms from Li Si telling me who our 副主编 will be. I could just smashed my phone, seriously. I'm not biased, but i am so sorry, i don really like being with/ working with RG girls apart from jie, Jaime and Jamie, who are amazingly great pple. SO SORRY. But almost all of them RG girls have this really bad and incurable attitude problem. And i really was quite irritated when i heard her say how if she wan to join 编委, she would rather be someone BIG. FIne. Go ahead. But Li Si, why her??????? WE have like 50 LEP students in the cohort? ARGHHHHHHHHH. Should i leave 编委? Should i... should i??? But i cant do dat to Li Si, she's such a fab fwen of mine. And she was so nice and concerned abt my crazily mad schedule and din dare get me to join 编委 till i told her i still can handle, and i was interested in it. ARGH. Li Si is more impt rite? Feel like banging my head against the wall. And i just finished typing the programme booklet's 22nd and 23rd B.O.D list (Haha... i know the seniors' full names, but dunno my own B.O.D's full names.) and tried consolidating the "Special Thanks to..." [Only typed all the headings... the only name i noe for sure is Photograoher-Jia Yee] And Yen Mei STILL hasn given me the guest's lists.... and my invitations are like the MOST URGENT. ARGH!!!! *I now believe what the Big-5 personality test said abt me reacting strongly to stress. I am very very very very very very STRESSED. Realised how strung up i am coz the whole of today i've been dropping things, forgetting things, knocking into this and that and saying the wrong things and being utterly confused. I am STRESSED. But if i sit down and tink back, there were pretty nice points of today too. ----Like i got to talk alot to Yi Yang and borrowed first aid kits from his PDP for my Old Newspaper Collection and got to noe Si Xiong, the last member of 28/03 animal farm. ----Like when me and Yi Yang and 木木学长 and Hui Min and Jaime went to carry the 3 big boxes of 《红楼梦》dat juz arrived. ' ----Like when Ga Yeong and i got to talk and laugh and actually connect a little. ----Like when i went with Stanley to buy the invitations we got to talk a bit too. Hah. Though now i am even more sure he and i have nothing in common to really talk abt. ----Like all those free periods today (1 period, BREAK, 1 period, FREE PERIOD, 1 period, FREE PERIOD. I muz haf the slackest combi in the whole of TJ i tink.) ----Like i finally churned out something to write in my 手记 after being brain-jammed for so long and searching for inspiration in my music for such a long period of time. yay. ----Like getting Jia Yee to help me be the photographer for my investiture (Andrew kept saying: "Your investiture leh. V big thing. 我担当不起。。。" and insisted on helping me find Jia yee. )and gettin to noe her too. Life is speckled with ups and downs. A day is enough for you to understand this. =P Joyce at 11:16 PM
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